I have lots of changes that I plan to make over the next year. I'm not going to tell you what they are. That would be stupid.
Anyway, I find all too often that I make the decision to do things and never get round to doing them, life or something gets in the way. This time I'm going to make it happen. After all, if you're not moving forward you might as well be standing still. I'm no longer where I want to be.
Why is it that all too often we say we are going to do things and then don't?
Is it fear? Fear of failure? Fear of the unknown? Fear that even though you want to make a change the change you make my lead you to another place you don't want to be?
I think for me its all of the above. All of which equates to just plain fear.
But if you never take the risk you will never know what could have been? In life I think that you should challenge yourself to do new things, even if it may be scary.
When I opened the shop in 2013 I don't remember being full of fear. Maybe it was because then I had nothing to lose.
I now have success on my side. Yes I would call Sally Shortcake a success for me. Some people wouldn't get out of bed for what I do but its a success for many reasons. I have a lot more confidence in myself as an entrepreneur and business owner than I did five years ago as well as confidence in my baking and the products that I produce.
I also have five years more experience in the catering trade. But I'm more nervous than ever to try something new.
I don't know. Maybe I'm confusing some of the fear with excitement. I have had more routine over the past five years than ever in my life. I don't like doing the same thing day in day out but by doing this I have proved to myself that I can stick to something. However, there has been limited excitement. Each Tuesday brings the same thing, the same routine and then within a flash its Saturday afternoon and the working week is over just the same as it was the last week. I try not to think about it too much to be honest.
Writing this has made me realise just how much I need the change in my life. Some of the fear has gone away.
I guess the fear of the unknown is a much better prospect right now than the fear of being stuck in the same routine for much longer.
So if you see me in a few months and you don't notice any changes please give me a kick up the arse and tell me to read my own blog!!